It's lonely on here.

I'm lonely.

My name here.

-Edit-

I lose people.

Clide

brandon

Basically, I'm a mutt xP.

So cyoot... Bye-bye!

brandon

Anyways, a couple weeks! Au revoir.

brandon

          I've taken this for granted.

                               And for that, I apologize.

brandon

This beverage is different for me. Usually I'm big on the carbonated and caffeinated things. But I've thought tea is alright for quite a while now. It's nice; kinda fits right now :).

I really feel like getting out tonight. I even feel like going far, like down to seven-eleven or something. Almost like it would make up for not hanging out with my friends. Man, it would be neat if I had someone I could go out with this late or meet with this late. Kind of a dream of mine. I guess it could more likely happen when I have a car, and until then I can make it alone.

Bye :).

brandon

I like cheesecake. :P

There I go, losing focus again. I suppose it's because I got that out of my system... :). Thanks friends for listening... Please tell me if you ever have any problems at all with me. Dah, kill all...

brandon

I should stop complaining -

-Flutters around-

Yees, ee'd leek ey ewm... Pewrtreege. Yers.

Wanna hear something funny? Call my phone. Then tell me you wanna hear my voicemail, because I'll probably pick up, and call me back again. >D.

brandon

I guess I'm grounded until the school year ends, but oh well....

I should pour you all a cup of frarsisk and have thrice a cheers to your love. It's almost as unconditional as God's. And I'm truly thankful, friends.

Other things... Well, I've been working on that game I'm always working on. I've added a super secret "Chuck Norris" weapon that basically destroys anything in one hit. Well duh, it's Chuck Norris. Heheh.

Therefore I shall grant ye all one thousand spickets of cash!

brandon

So uh, youth trip last weekend. It was really sweet, although the whole time my allergies were bugging the crap out of me, lol. But, I have to thank my allergies, ironically. I met a really cool dude whilst playing the dorm's piano at 2 am because my allergies were keeping me from sleep. He was a really talented pianist, and I got his myspace. He said he'll send me his CD when it gets finished. Sweetness. There were still good times despite my allergies, and of course really funny stuff. There's a certain something that's always bugging me at things with my youth group, though... It has nothing to do with the people... Well it does, but I don't have a problem with anyone's attitude or anything... Ah, nevermind. But yeah, definitely fun as schmerfboptle (new word) and it'll be sweet to go there again next year. We went to Ozark Christian College, by ze vay.

Well, I certainly did get hit by those allergies. We got home on saturday evening, and sunday morning my mom woke me up to go to church at 7, I forgot to set my alarm. I was like "Ehhhh," and I got up and felt like I hardly had the energy to put my clothes on. I was really freaking exhausted, heheh. So I told her and went back to bed, and slept in until 2 pm, lol. I still feel really bad about missing church though :\. Definitely won't happen again.

I guess I'm going to "180" next wednesday (this upcoming wednesday) with a friend because I don't have youth group. Should be pretty sweet. I have a few friends that go to it. I guess it's a youth service as well. And, I guess, that I will find out :P. Then a "pizza dance" to look forward to with my youth group on Friday. Should be o-mazing! Then saturday, a friend's high school graduation with a bunch of my friends.

It's stormeh outside o_o. Er, hehe e.e;. Sorry, no one's online now, so being my lonely self I'm pouring my mind out, lol. May as well just, tell you all my whole life story and my social security number and all of my identification stuff, the things I like and the things I hate. But nah. x). Then I'd have nothing to talk about to you in person, except what's up with you.

...

.....What the heck am I talking about?! @_@

brandon

Sigh, sigh. What to do with myself.

brandon

Morning station
I couldn't get aboard the packed train

The generation of boys locking themselves
In rooms littered with keys
An electric monster
The speakers only whisper
What you shouted
At the top of your lungs
I watched from up front what was
To be this generation's only
Hope of being saved
As it vanished out of sight
I tried to reach out to it

Power station
I'll give you as many volts as you want

Blues Drive Monster
Why can't we just destroy the melancholy in this
World of ours
And soak up all the tears

Adults wrinkle their brows in annoyance
At your laughing voice
And your footsteps announced your arrival
Drawing slowly nearer
Those men are holding guns
Aimed at your overlarge throat
To think that sort of thing would make you
Change is conceited
Your apathy much too far gone
You don't realize what you've become

Radio station
Destroy the wall of delusions

Blues Drive Monster
Why can't we just destroy the melancholy in this
World of ours
Wait until I find out

How many times
Did you steal their dreams
Hoisting them onto your shoulders
And run until
The night turned to day

No stealy, I wrote :P.

brandon

Byarr. :)

brandon

But from there I can hold you
To my soul and to my heart
Forever walking beside
I have found the longest of life -

True and eternal
What else is greater?
For I desire no more

brandon

My dog has cancer, I heard wednesday.

Ahh, I've done hardly anything over break. HAHAHA. But. Last night a friend spent the night. Me and him went out at 2:30 dressed up. I was wearing an upside-down sweater vest over my pants with a belt holding it up, some ghetto red and black and yellow plaid shirt, a fur guitar strap thing, a silver wig, my pinstriped hat, and some huge napolean-like glasses. He wore his blue and black pancho and a giant sombrero. Not to mention, we saw a CAR with an even bigger sombrero like tied to the top of it. Crazy. So we went to Taco Bell all dressed up like that at 2:30 A.M. and since it's drive through only, we came up in our invisible car. I was driving. They wouldn't answer at the little speaker thing so we "drove" up to the window, and this dude on the phone kinda passed by and looked at me funny, and I like nodded my head at him. So this other dude comes up and let us get food (YES!) whilst a girl and the older dude are cracking up at us and our invisible car. We got our food, and drove off to the nearby price chopper and ate in there cuz it was warm and open 24/7. We got soda from there and went back home. Sweet.

Now I must bid you farewell; adieu.

brandon

brandon

You've had your Doritos
And your enchilladas,
But oh, pretty mama
Don'tcha want the chip
That tastes just like your precious
Enchillada dip

You know you want some Enchilladitos
You know you want some Enchilladitos
Don'tcha don'tcha want 'dem Enchilladitos
Don'tcha need some Enchilladitos

--------------------------------------------------

I wrote that. No stealy. :).

So uh... Who wants to hang out? Hah. I'm pretty bored, but that's not what's going to get me down. It's the loneliness. I'm used to it, but it's times like this where most everyone else is either in Asia or somewhere equally far away, or hanging out with friends every day, that it gets to me. It's not like I do anything to myself; I'm above that. I know it does me no good. I don't do drugs or drink it away with alcohol. I would never have second thoughts on such actions. But it still gets to me... I always get over it. Eventually. Makes me wonder if it's doing anything long-term to me that I simply don't notice now.

Ah, don't feel bad for me. Let's just hang out and not care about the lonely times. Because everyone needs those times at some point. We need them to keep our concious clear and our outlook right. I do at least.

So that's when we roll the happy music! :D

brandon

I just realized as I was walking home today; no one lives in the two houses next to me, and I live at the very end of a long cul-de-sac. The people to the left of us moved and no one wants their house, and the house to the right of us caught on fire a month ago and now the dude that lived their is living with his fiance. Don't I feel lonely? xP.

Gah, I'm still in report mode. I had to type a book report last night, and now I feel like I have to type a certain number of sentences, and I even subconciously spellchecked cul-de-sac a minute ago e.e. Evil.

I hope I'll be able to see a lot of people this break... I really don't want to spend hardly any time at home. But for when I do, I have a game to work on, plus I can chat to most of the people I wanna see this weekend. Yay.

brandon

Then I had a lock in at my church. That was sweet, too. If you didn't already know, most of my best guy buds are there, so I had a great time. Ahaaa, it was sweet. -sigh- I'm kinda sad 'cuz it's all over, but it's always like that after hanging out. I'm used to it ^^.

I can deal.

brandon

SANDWICH!!!

...

Ehh, it's not a sandwich! :(

-turns and walks away-

brandon

I didn't this time because I thought it was summer.

-blames the music and the uncharacteristic weather-

I had something really sad and lonely to write for this valentines day, but I figured you were sick of that. I almost cried. But big deal right; I'm sure plenty of people did as well. Last year I got a beautiful red carnation. That person doesn't go to my school anymore, but of course I thought of her. I still have that flower, because it means a lot to me about how kind and carefree she was.

So I saw them today in the arms of others and thought, "Those are pretty."

They're... Really pretty.

brandon                                                               ?

On the back of the insert of the first MCR album, it says "MERCI POUR LE VENIN" which is french. It translates to "THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM" which is the name of one of their newer songs. I just think that's neat, hinting to a new album in that way.

Computer, games, music, piano, tv. Those are all the things I don't have anymore, just so you know. Annnd, I'm off! For that very reason.

brandon

Good day, mate.

brsickofwritingmynamedownhere

"You know I'll
Call you eventually
When I want to talk
Until then you're invisible"

That's what it seems like I am to people. That's what it seems like my whole family is to people. Easy to forget, and not a part of anything. No guilt felt by those who forget. Not part of anyone's life, just people others wouldn't try to contact if they didn't run into us every once in a while. No one tries to keep bonds with us; we're the ones working our asses off to keep in contact with the ones we like and love.

Just thoughts and feelings I encounter all too much. I figured I ought to get them out of me before they make me rotten with disgust. Disgust for even the ones I want to stay close to.

brandon

brandon

Something in you would die.

brandon

-Big sigh.-

brandon

timmeh.

I lost access to a portable hard drive around eight months ago due to a virus that got into the harddrive. The virus made any computer that it connected to be slow as hell, until it was disconnected. The contents of the hard drive. Every video, every picture, every image, every graphic, every project, every piece of writing, every fucking game, and every memory that I ever created within 4 years before that time. Four years of work, learning, and progress, all fucking lost, not to mention the music I had. You want to know why? I believed that we could still get a proffessional to get the files off of the hard drive, so I left it unplugged. We never got a proffessional to look at it, and it just sat around unplugged for eight months. So thirty minutes ago, I decide to check it out again, see if I really can't do anything to get it running. And fucking look, the internal battery that I didn't know exsisted, that it needed to keep things stored, was quite obviously dead. Every single file that had existed on that hard drive, 30 GB of me and my friends' history together, and the things I learned, are all gone. I can remember every one of them, too. Ever one that will stay in my memories, but can never be relived again. NEVER. They're gone for good. All the games I remember spending days creating and testing, the amazing graphics that I remember learning with, the themes, the ridiculous but funny sound files I made (thank god I put most of those up on my website, though), the hillarious videos of the crazy things that me and my friends did, that there's no way we could think of now because we've lost those amazing minds and creativity, inspiration. It was all on video and in pictures. The very first lyrics I tried to write. Some of my greatest stories I've ever written. Not to mention links in a 3D game where you create your own structures. Those are lost; there's no way I'll ever find those again. Also... The dreams... GOD. So all of that crap is gone forever. I'm not crying, but I sure as hell want to. I wish I could just pull the freaking files out of my head, because that's where they all are now, and nowhere else, and will never be anywhere else again.

The sad thing is, now I've typed more about some computer mishap than I have about anything in my life for a long, long time. Just goes to show how much of a loser I am. But can you imagine, if you were an artist, having every painting you painstakingly made and the memories, them all just being burnt to the ground. Or like a savings account that you had worked all your life to put $500k into, and you check it one day and the balance is zero. Or like someone who forgets everything, so they take pictures every five minutes to help them recall events, and losing every one of those. My memory -is- very bad. It's... All the trips I took. All the fun I had in those four years.

Gone. The End.

brandon

HARRUMPH! o_o

brandon

How are youuu? That's one thing I want you to tell me when you comment. I'm getting better, and trying! Wanna ride bikes? Wan' some shocolate cake? You wanna know where that thing is? Oh, you don't wanna know where that thing is.

xDD

I um. Think. Something special. Nope. Nothing special has happened for a while. Except I got a new phone, but you knew that. I wish something special happened. OH YES! There was one special thing! I got to talk to my friend Amber. She makes meh happeh :). But that's all the special things.

I don't wanna talk about the un-special things. They make me feel. Un-special? HAH!

I dissapear. :P

brandon

Lookie! No ...'s!

Here, I made you a card. Not from the shelf, but straight from the heart, and here's what it says; "I've made some mistakes, but you're gonna miss me."

Something's got me in the mood to slit my guts and let you know. I know it's not the cleanest sight but I'll do it again, if that's what it's gonna take.

I think someone I know might feel like that. God, I'm a freaking terrible person. I should've never gotten into this "crowd." I should've just stayed the ignorant fool who doesn't recognize the flaws and mistakes in his personaility that he makes daily. Should've just stayed a dork that noone likes, minded my own business, so that I'dve never hurt anyone. But why tell myself now? It's quite obvious that it's too late. All I can do anymore is apologize and strive to avoid a similar situation in the future, try to help the one I hurt. If it is just one...

Having such great fun?!"

The old man exclaimed as

A jelly bean escaped his hand

Falling through the littered air

A boy picks it up

Twenty-three and a half years later

And throws it aside,

The cracked, dirt-filled morsel

The cracked, broken expression on his face

The boy wanders the wreckage

Of the broken home

Of a broken heart

Somewhere nearby

The boy sees the eye of a cat

The very same cat

That watched the fall

Of the very same house

That sheltered the lovely nights

Of the very same broken heart

That witnessed the loss

Of the very same stubborn soul

That worked hard for the money

And bought the very same jelly bean

The crying boy just crushed with his heel

That they missed with the vacuum

That dodged every tumbling beam

And every falling ceiling

And every spreading flame

That consumed all of the world

But the boy and his cat

brandon

Just felt inspired, felt bored. Felt like writing, I suppose.

A haircut, too --; my bangs are shorter now... They look better condition-wise, but they're like an inch shorter x.x. They still can cover my eyes, at least, but only touch the tip of my nose when pulled out. I could lick them before, and with ease (only talking signs of progress, here).

Yeah.

brandon

 Tried to make my hair look fluffy.

 ... Tried to make the pic look... Nevermind.

 This is where the... Hardcore singing and headbanging while sitting began.

 ARRRR!

 What.

Quite obviously, none of them are edited. Just a spurr of the moment type of thing, I suppose. Crappy quality due to the use of my computer's webcam. A few of them wouldn't show up, as well.

Before I left for Ohio, I went to the Trans Siberian Orchestra concert at Kemper Arena. It... I haven't seen many shows, but I can say that was one of the best, in all aspects, shows that I have ever seen and probably ever will see. The lights were crazy, the guitarists and keyboardists were INSANE. It was just... Wow. Yeah. You missed out! If ya didn't go, schwaa :P.

Later, the deuce.

brandon

I head home on fridayyy... Until then!

brandon

Jeez, I could swear that's gotta be pretty close to the most comments ever on one of my posts. Thanks! Thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks I LOVE YOU. x).

Take these misunderstandings,
     And send them back where they came from.

brandon

Bored is me, me is bored! Bored me have-have! Chi say me bored-bored have!

I have christmas this sunday. Then I leave for Ohio next friday, where I have real christmas with my family :). A christmas on christmas eve with one side, and real christmas day christmas with the other. ^^ I'm excited.

I um... I don't like the way things are now... I really don't, not at all. I don't know what that means really but... Everything has been getting me down... GDMFBAH. >< I think I have issues... Little relief... I need relief! I'm being teased too much and noone knows it, not really even the tease-ers. And it usually doesn't but, it's really starting to get to me x_x.

brandon

ISaderMaderMorts McDeuce-Deuce

I'm lonely. I still need a ride home from school monday and tuesday x_x. Read the end of the last post >>.

My head is strong, my heart is weak. My head always speaks before my heart knows what it's going to say. I never realize my emotions fast enough to make them matter. So I think about my actions later, and realize that I dissaprove of what I did, and wish I'd done something different. This happens too much.

...Don't have a ride home monday or tuesday x_x. And I really don't want to sit outside of my school for an hour and fourty minutes until my bus comes. Evilll....

<3

brandon

Ground rules:
The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "Five Weird Habits of Yourself" and the people who get tagged need to then write a Wanga entry about their five "quirky" little habits as well as state the rules of this game clearly.  At the end, you  need to list the next five people who you want to tag, and then go to leave a tag "smooch" on their Wanga.

1 - I like to shower in the dark, and I think it's magical. Especially with some candles lit, some fog, and a good, slow song.

2 - I constantly think about what I can do to improve my personality.

3 - I love and insist to listen to other people's problems, partly because it can help me figure out things about myself.

4 - Always do I want and try to make my friends feel better, and sometimes it backfires.

5 - I collect and try all new (mostly carbonated and energy) beverages that I can find.

I guess they weren't all wierd, really. Some of them might not really even get off as habits x). Oh well...

I Chooserize:

1: Amber

2: Taylor

3: Rhonda

4: Stef

5: ...TREE MAN!!!

(What the o_o I don't... Know any guys with Wanga >.>;)

brandon

Edit (Half An Hour Later): -Is dumbfounded- o.o

Name: Tree Man
Country: United States
State: Tennessee
Birthday: 6/13/1954
Gender: Male

Expertise: Glass cleaning
Occupation: Consulting
Industry: Business

Tree Man has no posts.

Who would've thought? xDDD THE GLASS CLEANING TREE COMES FOR YOU!!!

brandon

Again.

brandon

Especially when you don't even know what you're crying about.

brandon

Exactly. And it seems like nothing helps it.

brandon

...What the hell am I talking about. I'm so alone... I have to go. Don't know what it'll take to recover from this depression. Feels like my soul has been dipped in a lake of hell. GOD I AM CONFUSED.

Miss you, love.

brandon

EDIT: I LOVE SNOW!!! It makes everything outside so much more quiet... And it's beautiful and sparkly... xD. <3.

     Just wait to please yourself,
               and pause to please your heart.

<3 brandon

The word "love" is overused and undermeant.

http://www.decidel.com/dearhero

There's a link to our band's site. The name isn't official, and neither is the site really. Me and another member (Jonathan) are just experimenting. No recordings up or anything. I didn't really make any of the site or graphics (yet! >D), I just provided the web space so far.

That is all.

brandon

(Two days later: See what happens when you thank people for the comments? Lol @_@)

It's been so long.

But each time I'm surprised that I'm not cutting myself to shreds. Not physically, at least.

brandon

"Hey bro just wanted to let you know i love you and i'm there any time you need me. just let me know

     -bri"

Hahah, "bri" (Brian) is my older brother. I thought "Woah... That was completely the opposite of what I expected." Isn't that sweet? My brother rules.

So I texted him back saying thanks. He replied, "Word. Now go to bed it's late." Lol. Then, right before I crashed, I realized he took the heater from my room -.-;; xD. Nooo, I can't LIVE without the heater!! Seriously... The noise it makes puts me to sleep, not to mention it keeps my room warm. I texted him again about that, and he replied with "he he" >.>;. It's alright though, I've slept in the basement in the winter, and it really does get freezing down there.

Going to band practice soon... Our band needs a name, dangit! x). Later <3.

brandon

It's lost again now, and things are how they've been again. For me.

brandon

I've noticed the upkeep in comments lately... Thanks very much for checking up on me so much. It really does help me feel better about some things. I like hearing what you have to say about what I write in here. It gives me a sense on where I'm supposed to go next.

Eee, I promised a very special someone I'd write them a song for christmas. I'd better get working on it. But I think I have the inspiration that will help me through that, thanks to a band I was recently introduced to. Hopefully it will be good... I don't want anything retarded or corny. Nothing like that... And when you see this, my special someone, don't go giving yourself away in a comment :).

I love music. To be able to create a piece as beautiful as I've learned, I can't imagine... It definitely won't be very soon. I need a lot more experience to do something that amazing. But it's okay; the creators of those songs didn't just play piano for a year without lessons, and then make those up x).

<3

brandonstintonioso

To play that beautifully...

To dream that gracefully...

And to be as far from reality as I am now, once again...

It is all just an illusion.

brandon

{[(Where's the sense in THIS entry?!)]}

Oh, and, I know it's a bit late :x but happy thanksgiving everyone!

Bye-bye. (What a wierdly spelled word! <3)

brandon

Anyways, the song is called Eyes On Me. To be honest, it is from a game, but that doesn't matter. I've loved this song since I was what like... Eleven or twelve years old. I'd never dreamed I would be playing it to people. I think it's beautiful. Of course, there are a few extremely minor errors on this recording... But the first third of it was modified/created/added by me, because it was something I created in my mind
(thought I remembered) somewhere anddd... When I finally heard the song again, I was dissapointed that it wasn't really in there.

And I'm rambling x). It's 5:18, so uh... -collapses-

brandon

Little Red Box (for those of you that know) wouldn't serve well. I don't think any instrumental parts of anything would go good with that. I have some lyrics I wrote down a few months ago I want to use. I... Might had written them on here if they were close and/or I wasn't lazy, but nay.

Tch... "Nay." x)

brandon

On another... "Note." I bought the new Thrice album. I didn't like it at all at first, but now I'm obsessed. Other than that, nothing new.

brandon

All of this until... I find my eternal love - if I haven't already :P.

brandon

Well, I went to a party for my church at skate city. It was fairly lame, hold the 16 inch awesome tasting pizza I bought. But I did get to hang out with one or two of my friends, at least.

Today was very plain. I just went to all of my classes, tired and dozing off every once in a while. Didn't get to talk to any of my friends, but it's okay. Those days happen, ya?

Unless you're popular and call everyone your "friend."

I'm hoping for great things. My future is something I never think about too deeply, and maybe it's for the best. Planning everything out isn't as great is it may seem to some. There will always be some sort of disruption somewhere, and the course will have to change to make room for it.

What that had to do with anything? I don't know. Only looking for something different to tell, that's all.

brandon

My product:

Not saying that caffeine is bad... For more ironic purposes, if there were a back to the fall bottle, the nutrition facts would read, "Caffeine     -28g."

brandon

Don't forget to read my last post. It's kinda important to me that everone understands what it says. Thanks ^^.

How come you never smile?
How come you never talk?
How come you never talk to anyone?
Why don't you ever smile?
Why don't you ever talk?
Why don't you ever talk to anyone?
Do you ever smile?
Do you ever talk?
What's wrong?
What's the matter?
Have you ever smiled?
Can you smile?
Can you talk?
Are you anarexic?
Are you mute?
Is something wrong?
Is something the matter?
Is he deaf?
Can he talk?

There. Now you've heard once what I hear every week day of my freaking life. They all want to know the same things... And I usually never answer. Then I have a feeling they begin to think I am those things. Also, just letting them know I'm not deaf.

...But the answer - I don't know. Except the obvious ones, which are...Well, it's obvious. But I'm sick of it. It gets in the way of everything; my grades, my friends, my relationships, my future. And yet I still can't change it. Maybe if they'd actually try a little harder to get to know me... But it's not their fault, mostly. It's mostly my fault. If I talked as freely as everyone else, there'd be no problems and I'd probably be left alone, as far as the questions go.

God, but I'm letting them make their own conclusions about me that could never be true. I'm almost the very opposite of what they see at school, hold the... "Shyness."

brandon

-Just letting you know.

brandon

Part of that was knowing that all my work is done. Whenever it came up in my mind, I could just pass it away because it was done :P. Feels good... Things are getting much better. Unfortunately, my parents won't believe it until they see it - on midterms -.-;. But oh well. I'm doing a lot more piano playing; I've created a few new songs that are a little rough, but get the idea down. Plus I've learned my first real, complex, sheet music type song, which is beautiful sounding. It feels good... Knowing that I taught it to myself and I haven't even had a half year of lessons xD.

Also, I got to hang out with different friends both on saturday and sunday ^^.

So, tell me. How are you?

brandon

Anyways, sorry to be a complaining jerk, but I'm grounded again. And this time, the computer had all the cords ripped out of it without being properly turned off, and hauled off by my dad, after he punched a freaking hole in the wall. Funny thing is, the conditions are better than they were when he ungrounded me. The stubborn fool forgot and refuses to acknowledge that he ungrounded me, even though my mom knows and supports that, too.

I've told more than I wanted to. So now I'm on their computer while they're both at work... Aye.

I don't have a life anymore.

brandon

I dunno, lol. It's the after-effects of my jones soda cap; "Get excited over nothing." xD. It was pretty fun while it lasted. I mean, being all excited, over NOTHING. How much more FUN- No.

So, I got to paint walls this weekend! And I'll get to add cool designs to one of 'em this week, too! Heheheh.

I've also been playing keyboard a lot... I haven't really learned but one new song in a while, but I think I'm slowly getting better. I need to study chords and learn a bunch - I could create a lot fuller sounding music that way.

Yus! Post the thoughts of yore :P.

brandon

What do you think?

brandon

brandon

Yus! Make it with cajun sauce, together.

brandon

     It's wonderful, isn't it?...
                                   Yes, it is beatiful.

               brandon

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     I wonder if some people secretly think that's really rude of me? x_x... o.o;

     Crap.

          ~Brandon

I was gonna say something else, but I forgot ;-;. I sorreh.

<3.

brandon

'Cuz I don't think
That I have got the stomach to
Stomach
Callin' you today

brandon

But it's not like the people at my new school care anyways. After all, there are about 1,200 people there. I'm just one of them. The kind that sits quiet, excluded from |everything|. Yeah, just another one of those millions of emotional-problems-and-shows-its.

However, the same doesn't apply toward my friends. I don't want them to know. I cover it up because, who wants to be with someone who does nothing but sulk in their greif. Just so; they wouldn't. They'd leave me behind, like all of them already do occasionally, or have for good.

Am I in the wrong crowd? 'Cuz I don't believe in stereotyping. ... Ye-heah.

brandon

Wanna know how to pronounce it?

Val-VO-steen Mic-Shwice-TAR-vee-gan.

^^.

brandon

...But I have nothing to say.

See, that made perfect sense, right?

brandon

brandon

HHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

brandon

E.H.: EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH

Yours Truly,
     Mister Valvostein McSchweistarvegan (a.k.a Toshibida Koi)

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|       >    O0      \/     X
|       >    O0      /\     X
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Other than that... Not much else to say except I'm bored... And unless you live in Texas (:P), you ought to call me up 'cuz I know we need to hang out. I guess... So.

Mmhmm.

brandon

...See how much longer I can hold onto it.

brandon

Yeah. So much for summer being fun. The school year was a lot more hellish, but this is still hell.

Forgive me, I had to let that out -.-;. And even that probably won't help. Eventually it'll all build up and I'll burst; get into one of my depressional can't-stop-crying frenzies of evil doom. Blaaaah.

And I'm sorry... That probably didn't make you happy, and couldn't have helped any similar situations of yours either. The whole world is dying and a quarter of the population is depressed, twenty-four seven.

That's estimated, foozer.

brandon

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